Todae ... I have realised that I actually have NO one to share my thoughts and feelings with ! Todae ... we started toking to butt.S and then we get along pretty well ... but when we wanna go home ! I felt very uncomfortable cos its like not what it used to be ... Butt.S went home with rafidah and usually i always get to tok to her but now ... its strating to get rare ! I feel very sad ... looks like I still got another bestfwen but i'm sharing her with heidi ... That bestfwen is wan yuan ! Wan yuan is not being fair to me just now in saying that she wanted to sit with heidi at the NE show .... even though if she nvr bring up the idea, she should have at least realised that she is being unfair !!! Why are ppl like this .... THIS IS AN EMPTY PROMISE MADE BY HEIDI AND WAN YUAN ! Am i fated to be alone ... with NO bestfrens in concor ... I jus cant "adapt" to the changes aroung me ! While u r reading this, u may find this as I'm selfish but ... its jus tat , NVM ! Everythings totally different ... And also ! There's one sin that i have jus made jus now !!! I told a lie to my mum saying that i had prayed and she caught me red- handed ... its jus that i have NO mood ... why has everything change to me ??? Is the fwen-loss thingy part of PUBITY ? It jus doesn't seem ryt ...